Pain

It just dawned upon me how terrible an actor I am...
I've been playing the younger one all my life...
even when I didn't need to... (not knowing when to stop! that's the biggest mark of a bad actor!)

and most of the people didn't even realize that I was just playing naive...
( you'd think that not letting people know that you are acting is what a great actor does but let me warn you....it's something that an actor should NEVER do!)

And now... I've decided to log off.... switch user...

but I still seem to be 'saving my settings...'

...breaking the shell that encloses human understanding...